A Love Affair Starts With You
As I lie here in delightful warmth and silence, sinking into the fibers beneath me, I bask in the tranquility that surrounds me. Inhaling deeply, holding, releasing, and repeating, I feel the real estate of my nervous system appreciating in market value.
Quietly, I affirm, "All I need is right here. I am kind, I adore sweetness, and I bring laughter to people's lives. Of course with the exception of my kids they think I am “cringe." I giggle at this, enamored with the honest interactions my children bring, rooted in decades of trust and unwavering care.
My face radiates warmth from years of loving my children, friends, and salacious lovers. My eyes convey messages - a warm welcome or a subtle dismissal, depending on the moment. The duality of human response is accepted and safeguarded by me, a testament to years of growing relational instinct and evolving into a tenure of hard-earned wisdom.
My mouth yearns with longing for another: I am well known for, a quick wit, a sassy retort, or an empathetic verbal embrace. I admire the healthy beauty of my body in this quiet reprieve. Gratefully bidding farewell to harsh judgments and violent assaults of mindless persecution on this cellular miracle of strength and vibrancy.
The energy of my years well spent under the heavy metal of push, pull, and lifting keeps me in a youthful state of mind, body, and spirit. I witness daily the renewed impact of my mindful living, made long before health and wellness became trendy buzzwords tossed around without much consideration for the power they truly hold.
Acceptance of aging emanates from my pores, as I place the attractiveness I possess in a space where it's the least interesting quality about me. Despite the challenges imposed by societal standards, I walk with fortitude in my steps of vanity, seeking connections with those who appreciate more than just surface beauty.
I know how to sit content, no need for movement. Peace and I are longtime friends, spending time together daily and reminiscing about the days when we were not acquainted.
My heart beats with the flame of a well-ignited lantern. Half a century of time has imparted harsh lessons, especially when I attempted to light my own way out of others' dark spaces. I shine brighter when tending to my own mantle, leaving others to do the same.
Over the years, I've questioned the universe's love for me, cried out in perceived abandonment more than my vulnerability would dare admit. However, I gradually discovered over many excruciating life experiences that love permeates every moment, holding me with an unparalleled intimacy. Reminding me that I have never been forsaken or forgotten—just human. I am where I am because of the unwavering threads of love—masterful, all-knowing, never-ending, respected, and enduring until the end of my time.